Lose one thing and gain another ;

When you think youre so sure , everything turns around and crushes you . Im not gonna lie and say i was surprised it happen because im not surprised one bit . I had the strongest feeling that it would but i wanted to just ignore it . Now that it has happened i cant . Cant say that im really hurt like before .. because right now im not but i am hurt . I guess im so use to it , so use to being the one that gets left behind that it doesnt effect me that much . But in this situation i feel like i deserve to be the one that is left in the dust . I stepped into your life too soon, so pretty much i set myself up to be just the rebound or the one that gets left behind . Reason why i encouraged you to go back and give her that second chance . I feel like its the right thing to do because i know how much you like her and after this i probably wont ever feel like i did towards you again . Youre right it is confusing but its just part of life . Theres never a wrong or right as long as you do what you want then i will be happy for you , because i am that type of person who understands these sort of stuff . But her , i dont think shes there yet no offense but she doesnt see things they way i do . Honestly , i just want to step out right now and make it easier for you and i both, but like before but my heart wont move . I made you realize something today and you also made me realize a couple things too . I noticed that i have grown and became wiser from the last time this happened and its a good feeling . Also , i know for a fact that mentally , she will never be close to what i am and will become and you have that choice of which you'd rather choose . Maybe shes more your type . No one knows but you .