The ending ,

Its around this time where everyone begins to crack and show their true colors . Its the feeling you get in your gut when you know its something bad . &when you hear what you need to hear its worse than you think . I honestly just dont know . Hearing these things ... wow . I dont know what to say back . I dont know how to make things better . How am i suppose to react to these type of things ? I wasnt ready . Im not prepared . Im blown away because im so shocked and lost . How i feel inside .. i cant explain , but i really do just want to cry . Because i feel the same way . I want to go back to how we were . How close we were and when we were able to call eachother best friends with no second thoughts or doubts or when we were even able to say the word best friend in the same sentence with our names . :[ Its hard to let years of friendship disappear like that. We were the best of friends .. what happen ? We seriously had the greatest memories . But we all know how you get along with everyone and you can trust more people than i am able too . Its easier for you to make friends you can really trust but for me its not that easy . Thats why i kinda always counted on you to be one of the fews . I just want to know that i can still call you my best friend and that i wont have a weird feeling when i need to talk to you . I really really miss those times more than anything . Not being able to say "hey best." its like ... hell . Weve been through so much . Its like losing a sister . :/ Ive held this feeling inside so long . &now that all of this is happening.. tears wont stop coming out >< . It sucks . Idk anymore ... :/ i just dont want this to be the end of our friendship . i miss you <|3