Unexpected ,

Wow , it's like that paranoid feeling . Like you're so close to let someone inside an then bam something they say is like WTF and then the wall that blcks the closeness and goes up again. Like wow ! I was so close to letting him get in and then what he said was like WTF . Happiness is one thing but being happy because of lies is never good . What's going on? like is it because he likes me or is it because an easy way to get into my head and get the stuff they need. What is it -.- when all goes good something stupid happens and always ruins it . Blah, ask so much from me . What do I do ! How do I do it ! So stressful . So lost . Idk anymore . Ugh , :/.


Only good thing tonight is that my brother is coming back from Iraq in august. <3