Close my eyes and..

let the world pass me by . Cause honestly i dont know whats what anymore . I dont know who is who anymore . Im back to were i started just farther than before because of ONE brutal individual . I dont understand how someone can be so insensitive and thats coming from a person that it pretty messed up . This situation will never be completely erased from my mind . It will always float through my skull back and forth . Which then i will never have the chance to overlook what has happened . There you have it , you completed your goal . You never wanted me to forget who you are.. and now i will never forget. So when i think of you , i'll think of you as that person that took all my trust from me and purposely pushed me to the sand, so that i can mourn about my stupidity . You did it with no guilt . Do you have ANY sympathy for what you knew you were going to put me through ? Of course you didnt . You made me look foolish . Even though , all those times before i knew, you made me feel as if i were incredible like i was doing such a good job and im such a caring person . But feeling like that can never make up for how you made me feel after the truth was discovered . Caring i was , incredible .. was all a fantasy . Disappointment . I have failed and now i have no intention of trying to help another because all you have me thinking is that i cant do it . I just dont get why.. Why would you destroy someone's self esteem like that and how do you do it?

The feeling of being a failure ... absolutely sucks .