No longer ,

Tell me ... whats the definition of trust ? Honestly , i dont know if i can trust anyone anymore . There's a few people that have been there from the start but they're starting to fade away . Trust is slipping away from my vocabulary . I'm usually straight up and open but lately i've been hidden and isolated . What am i to do when i feel as if no one could understand me ? What am i to do when i begin to have second thoughts about EVERYONE and everything . I no longer have the urge to open up anymore , to anyone not a soul . I no longer hunger for my use to be best friends to come back to me . I realized they arent here for a reason , whatever that reason is , but as long as my truest friend stays that way . I wont need anyone but her .