how ive been missing you ..

its been about 5 months that you've been gone.. and 5 months left til i get to you see you again . You recently called a few days ago... and the sound of your voice sunk my heart because i can tell that youre unhappy by the tone of your voice. &I havent heard your voice for 5 months straight until that day. you didnt know how happy i was to hear you call me "asshole" again . You will never know how happy you made me when you told me you missed me. That was probably the first time in my whole life that i have ever heard you say that to me. Oh brother, how i miss you. I have so many things to tell you, i have so many questions to ask you, i need you to come back.. i need to tell you my problems so you can listen and help me. I wish you were able to call more often and talk longer. i wish youre able to come home sooner. i miss the way you bossed me around and called me names. i no longer feel like a little sister. i want to tell you i love you and have you respond "shut up monkey balls" i miss that. i want to hear you "try" to sing but then fail and sound like an elephant. i miss everything. and to think i would enjoy you being gone.. not at all. Please stay safe and come home soon brother. I would hate it to know that youre hurt while over in iraq. Stay strong. :/ The family misses you and loves you very much <3