Best i ever had ,

Wow , today was wow . I wasnt expecting to see him today . &when i did i just wanted to die :/ . Every time i see you, memories of us would pop up and i just start to hope you dont notice me or say anything to me but at the same time i want you to . :[ , its hard because youre my favorite past time . ugh , i just wish the type of friendship we have now isnt like this . :/ i wish it was better . You showed me a whole different world when it was us . You showed me a lot and taught me so much. its hard to forget something like that . The feelings i cant forget.. To me you were an important memory but what am i to you ? i just wanna know that . Sometimes i randomly question that cause you pop in my head every now and then . Im pretty sure you barely ever think of me only when you see me . :[ I hate this .. i want to say i hate you but i dont . i hate your actions . But past is past .. i need to stop looking at the past and focus on the present and the future that awaits me . :/ I just wish one day you would answer all these questions in my head .. even if those answers will hurt me more than you did that one day . i would still want to know .