Unanswered questions ,

So many questions to ask . so many without answers unless you take the risk and try it . WELL , some questions cant even be answered by taking that risk . why cant i be a mind reader . so then im able to read whoevers mind whenever i want ? so then i will know what theyre thinking and hopefully i can find my answers then . just somtimes i question what if blank blank . if so , how would blank blank . >:O i know certain people read my blog and so i dont want to say anything that could reveal my thoughts D: . can someone answer this one question for me ? if you had something hidden from a close friend and you want to tell them but you know its gonna hurt them .. so you decide to keep it inside . does that mean youre a bad friend ? :|

thanks to you ,

where is the rain ? so i can hide my tears when i cry . where's the mountain hidden from the world? so i can scream til i lose my voice and no one would be able to hear . where's that girl that never let anything get to her ? the one that always kept her head high . the social girl that was always known for smiling all day every day . Cause it seems that ive lost her and somehow i cant remember when it happened or why she has just disappeared . maybe it was because she lost hope, lost interest , lost reason , lost herself . i never knew something , someone can change so much in little time possible . how can someone so confident and independent ever possibly just lose themselves like that when they have all these people behind them supporting them ? what ever happened to that promise she promised herself ? its crazy how interest in life just stops , but when that ONE person that truly matters speaks up and vents to you about how they feel about this situation ; it opens up a new door . every single word that person has spoken hits you so hard you begin to realize that youre still living because of that person and without them you'd be dead . how is it possible that a girl with a friend like that be able to lose reason to smile , live , and cherish .. Thanks to you , i want to find that girl again . i want to BE her once more . i want to be that same person that gave you a new point of view in life everytime we're together . i WANT to be your only best friend that you depend on . i want to that one girl youre proud to say " she's my best friend and i can always ALWAYS count on her no matter what situation were in ." Because i know for a fact , i can always say that about my best friend , Laura T. Nguyen <3

Remember , i love you best ♥

Small things do make a difference ,

This 5 lettter word , is just used to much . Does anyone know the meaning of it anymore ?! Whenever i hear that word i just want to smack the person who said it . SORRY . No , dont use that word over small things . dont use that word unless you really mean it . Everyday i hear that word come out from one person's mouth the most . Sorry this sorry that . tell me what being sorry means to you ! you and i both know that word is overused in your vocabulary . " IM SORRY IM SORRY ! I WONT DO IT AGAIN " ahhh , shut upppppp ! dont BS with me . im tired of that 5 letter word coming out of your mouth . im tired of hearing it . im tired of people over using that word . why cant you just say "oh my bad . or ooops " sorry isnt a word to just THROW out there ! please , please dont tell me love is also another word you throw out there and is over use in your vocabulary tooo . Cause if it is im done with you . im tired of these things youve been doing . Promise again , another word not to be thrown out . Dont say you promise unless you mean it . dont say youre sorry unless you sincerely are . dont tell me you love me unless you truly do .

Recently , an argument has popped up . You may think its stupid but to me , its not . it maybe a small thing to you but to me , its not . All the small things you do count the most . i dont need you to do BIG and OUTRAGEOUS things for me . that is not needed . the small things you do are the things that made me fall for you . Yes , corny but its true . When we're on the phone , of course i would want to hear your voice . of course i would like to have a conversation . When im with you OFCOURSE id like to spend time with you cos i barely get to see you , but im not gonna leave my best friends alone when i came wih them . I still can spend time with you with my best friends . You want alone time ? Then plan a date when its just the 2 of us . dont leave your friend by myself its not right . What you probably dont know is that , when we fight it may not seem like im missing you but i am . im missing you like crazy . i miss you as if i havent seen or heard from you in 3 years . i miss you like that when youre at work . im like dieing to talk to you when you get back . You wont ever know how much it hurts me when were fighting cause youd be too busy thinknig about how much pain youre in . but sometimes time apart is good . time to myself is good . but im always thinking about you . <3>

depressed teeen ?

OMG , ever had that certain day when everything is just going terrible ? :O . or maybe even like 4 days in a row?! THIS SUCKSS ! first on friday , my phone fell out and it cracked on the side . then the very next day it deletes alllll my contacts :[ . the day after that it just SHUTS OFF ! and now i cant see the screen or nothing :[ i can get calls but i cant answer them . omg , my phone is like the other half of my life and now its like my other half is DEAD. >< , and then today i went the whole school day without food . my tummy was killing me ! and its gonna take me FOREVER to save up for my itouch . gosh , FML ! im not a patient person .. -.- . ugh , and i barely got to talk to my boyfriend today . he went off to work . and he should be back by now but still no call . lol , lame . and i still got homework to do and everything . omg , idk how im gonna last next year with all honor classes . UGH . now , im just arguing with my best friend about how she should just shoooot me in the head . >< , she says im like a depressed teen . wellll , guess what BUDDY ?! I AM ! :[ . i need a life . damn .

A great lost

When you begin to get close to someone , they begin to become a part of you . and when you spend every moment with that one person you feel like nothing can come between you guys . but the day you least expect it that one person is gone . out of your sight and what you guys had was erased . but yet everyday you sit there thinking of the good times with them wondering what happen and why it did . sitting cluelessly when out of no where they pass by you and dont even bother notice you there even when you try to speak to them. thats when i shatter into pieces because i know for a fact that youve changed and ive lost you for good. its the vibe that destroys someone mentally.

i miss you .. best friend .